I used to dread swim season. I hated putting on a swimsuit, and spent so much time and energy worrying about what other people would think of how I looked.
"Am I too fat to wear a bikini?"
"Does this suit give me back fat rolls?"
"Do I look like a beached whale?"
These were the kind of thoughts running through my head back then.
"If I could just lose some weight and change my body, I'd feel so much better!" I told myself.
But it wasn't that my body that needed to change. Rather, I needed to change how I felt about my body.
Looking back over old photos, and seeing how my body has changed (or not) over the years, it's clear to me that my feelings about my body are what drive my experience. Not the actual size of my body!
And even though I've actually gained weight over the past 10 years, I feel way more confident in a bathing suit now than I ever did then.
Now, I can't wait for beach and pool days!
What's the good news in all of this?